So, it is past 2 am....and I am still awake. It is so hard to fall asleep with so much on my mind.
It seems like I am having some sort of uneasiness about my future. I love science, I love studying science, but I hate the lifestyle of a scientist. I just don't understand the long hours, the low pay, and the huge amount of commitment of education and time. I am tired of having to decide between science and having a social life (with the social life always losing). Where is the balance? Why can't we have the best of both worlds? What happened to old-school science, the kind of science that you did in your free time for the fun of it? Maybe the problem is making a career out of something that I love, taking all of the fun out of it.
Also in my life, my grandfather died on Thursday. The funeral is this Thursday. The family is pretty broken up about it, and I have been the stable 'rock' member of the family. It is unfortunate, he was an awesome man and the stories have gone with him.
It looks like I am not going to sleep tonight, I will be on the road driving my sister to LA in less than 6 hours.
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Sorry to hear you didn't get much sleep. I hope you got some sleep, because I went to bed a little before you posted this and am exhausted today. Nothing a constant supply of caffeine can't fix but still.
Hope you had a safe trip to LA. And call me if you need me (I know, I know I've said this before, but still).
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